If you’ve been following my writing for a while, which I doubt many people have been, you may have realised that the kind of content that I’ve been putting out has been evolving in a new direction.
I guess this is an update on my “Real World: Please Stand By” post that I wrote back in November.
(This is the post) https://beccajade.com/the-real-world-please-stand-by/
When I first started writing, I was fortunate enough to be able to sack off the real world for a short period of time while I recovered from a whole bunch of brain shit that I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
I wrote because I needed something that felt right to me, that felt like I was lying down the foundations of *something* and just going in a forward’s direction.
My writing reflected that because it was from a different place. It was spiritual, and it was how the world made sense to me at that time. It was a lot of healing. I passed on everything I was learning through being stuck in my own head for a year.
Now, I’m looking more to write about more material things. People’s experiences on things, music, astrology, tarot. Hobbies, travel, anything out of the ordinary.
When I re-entered the real world, this time as a fully-fledged grown-up, I figured that I would stop writing. I figured that I would save enough money to be able to quit after maybe a year or so, invest, do something which meant I got a free card out of working the 9-5 for the rest of my life.
If anything, re-entering the real world has helped me ground all my airy-fairy thoughts into reality. I’m thriving, even if I feel like I’m not.
The lifestyle is shit. It is the shittest thing I do for now, I won’t lie.
I’m in an office, on behalf of somebody else’s vision, nearing 40 hours a week and I don’t see a pay check. Everything I have goes on bills or savings, and when I’m not here I’m doing freelance work to pay for anything that I want to do for fun or in my future. When I’m not doing freelance work, I’m working on my website, building my ‘portfolio’ for future jobs, learning from a course to try and build my brain in a way that makes me feel like I have a purpose, and when I’m not doing that I’m trying to use my free time to meet with friends or family who have their own lives that they’re trying to run.
It is shit, but I can’t think like that.
This is only temporary. The biggest mistake that people make is allowing themselves to be tripped up by a temporary hurdle which throws them off course. I won’t be here forever, I will be here until I level up.
When I first started this job I knew that there would come a time that I would absolutely fucking resent it- so I wrote a letter to myself reminding me of all the reasons I took this job.
I’m earning/saving more than I used to, and I’m using my time effectively.
I do my work, obviously, but when I get bored or I find myself questioning what the fuck I’m doing, it’s like I’m staring at this black wall that I’ve hit and the only thing that I can do is project the colours and pictures and madness of my own mind onto it.
Basically, what I’m trying to say, is spending my day constantly reminding myself that I can’t do this forever forces me into figuring out ways that I could support myself, so that I don’t have to do this forever.
I get ideas about articles to write, I get ideas about how to market myself, I learn about things like business structure, SEO, and I learn about how I can apply that logic to my weirdness. I’ve learned how to utilise my time.
When you’re in the real world it feels like you’re constantly fighting to try and stay afloat, pay the next bill, basically just survive. That’s what gets you depressed.
If you’re doing enough, creating enough, building enough proof around you that you are all that you know you are- there is no way that it’ll even be possible for you to not attract something better to you. It doesn’t make sense.
There will be an opportunity to break out of this, collaborate with other people, work.
For now, the only thing you can do to stop yourself staying stagnant is bury your head in what it is that you want to do everyday for the rest of your life. It does not have to be one thing, it just has to benefit you.
Manifestation is a lot of reprogramming your beliefs, but in equal parts with putting in the work.
Don’t let the work side of it trip you up, because that’s how you will end up spending your life in a 9-5 job.
A 9-5 Survival Guide:
- Write a letter to yourself reminding yourself of why you do this job. If there wasn’t a reason, you wouldn’t be putting up with it every-day.
- Set your sights on what you want out of life. Where would you like to be in a year’s time? More importantly, what are you going to need to be able to get there?
- What can you do now to become the version of yourself who has all that they want? How can you get whatever it is that you get out of your job while doing the things that they love?
This thing is a process and the answers likely won’t come to you at once. That’s okay, because at least you’re on the right track.
To hurry the ideas up, I recommend doing a guided meditation on the topic of the law of attraction, or the topic of money, as regularly as you can. 10 minutes everyday for the best results. I also recommend that you keep a list of your goals, and a list of affirmations about what you’re wanting (as though you already have them) in your workspace so that you can look over to them everyday and get excited about what you’re about to have. Become receptive to ideas and give your imaginative thoughts the time of day.
The good thing about a 9-5 is that it gives you stability while everything else around you is being questioned. Take advantage of that and commit yourself to being grateful of it.